Sigh I dunno what to say.Having some problems with someone.Although we've talked to make up,I still feel that everything is not settled.How I wish we could be as close as last time.I wish that barrier between us will dissolve.I wish that someday she'll know how I feel about her.I wish that someday,she'll be more sensitive towards my feelings.There's not much time left for us before she graduates so why doesn't she appreciate the time we have together?I want to give up.I want to just let go and let the relationship turn sour.It's up to her now if she will mend it back again.But,she seems so far away.She used to be my guide but now she's just left and forgot all the memories we had together.I know I'm in no position to educate her about anything but I really respect her for everything and I just can't believe things turn out this way.I wish she would chance upon this blog and know how I feel about things she does that unknowingly hurt me.I'm thinking of sending her an email to let her know everything but I can't bring myself to type those words that will affect her.Should I or should I not?Can someone just give me an answer?

First a bit of venting of unfairness...
How can the people in malaysia burn churches?They are the houses of God ok..A bit of respect here please.It's so disturbing to know people are destroying holy places?Just because of one word they have to resort to such violence?It's not their language!They didn't invent it!Arghh.Can't stand them.It just irks me to know these kind of stuff is happening to close to home.
Next,this year's want to do stuff:
1)Get A1s for all subjects!
2)Get a copy of George Orwell's 1984
3)Read more on political stuf
4)Read newspaper everyday
5)Go triple science class
6)Higher position in class

Can't seem to think of anymore